I walked into the Office one morning
Repeating a homophobic rhetoric that I had heard the evening prior
I thought it was very funny
I didn’t consider myself homophobic
Homophobia was never taught in my home
The church and wider society
Taught me it was wrong and that became rooted in me
My co-worker and I had a good relationship
We talked about everything, it was always a good time at work
That morning was different
Everything exploded in a matter of minutes
I could not understand why she was so offended by my silly rhetoric
Shags was into same-sex relationships
I had no idea
We had a strained relationship for a while
I was not sure how to react
I was conflicted
I apologized but I was still deeply confused
She was my friend above all else
I somehow swept “her lifestyle” under the rug
That had absolutely nothing to do with me
I love her and I was going to be there
One day, something happened
Her car or property was damaged
I was scared for her
And that day my life changed
That day induced a new perspective
I learnt the true meaning of love and compassion
I gained compassion for mankind
I know how to love the sinner and not the sin
I did not care if she was gay or straight
Blonde or black
She was an amazing human being
Her preferences was not a chip of curse on her back
I did not want anyone hurting her, for any reason.
A few days
I watched some of my white friends on Facebook
Downplay the hurt and pain caused by racism
I was enraged
As a black woman, I was perturbed
How could they not understand
I took a few days to reflect
My situation with Shags was exactly the same
I cared about the pieces of her that I was OK with
And somehow dismissed everything else
It was not until it became more personal and life-threatening
That I truly started to care
Now I wonder,
Could this be the reason why a lot of people cannot identity with Black Lives Matter
They hear it, they see it but they move right along
Is it because they cant truly relate?
My relationship with Shags taught me a lesson
A lesson society and psychology did not teach
Love and acceptance is not achieved over night
And understanding a situation is not as clear cut as we often thinks
Sometimes it can be achieved with a heart to heart
Other times, the experience has to be similar or pain
Shags remain a great friend/family to us
I would not want it any other way.
But
What about the individuals that will never that “Aha” moment
How do we bridge the gap?
How and where do we find common ground?
We often minimize the pain of others
Thinking it is not that big of deal
Sometimes, like now… It is and then some
Ignorance can no longer continue to be the excuse
Sadly, ones blissful ignorance
Is another ones despair